I retired. Yes, it’s only been 3 months. But a lot has happened in these 3 months. I’ve gone through a couple of viral illnesses, said goodbye to my youngest son who moved overseas, opened a “retirement business,” started a fun job working for a company I believe in, and now dealing with my father’s impending death. Yes, a lot has happened.
I was blessed to be able to leave my job in time to spend some time with my son and his family before they left for Italy for 3 years. I was blessed to have enough savings to carry us through until my retirement funds could kick in. I was blessed to have time to write for my new endeavor – Hope Breastfeeding Support – and learn how to manage my website. I’m learning that, yes, old dogs can learn new tricks. I’ve been blessed to have a couple of clients in that endeavor.
But I’m still not settled in my path. I’m not sure if my “business” will succeed – or that I even want it to. The stress and responsibility of being “it” for my clients is hard. I find it hard to gracefully back out when they still have needs – and I have gone far beyond the limits I set up. And with this continuing vacillation in my soul, it’s hard for me to commit to other opportunities. I hate to say no, but I don’t want to say yes and not be able to keep my promises.
Retirement is both easier and harder than I thought. There are more opportunities than I expected, but I find that aging has taken away some of my stamina. My prayer is that I will stay close to God and listen to His voice wherever He may lead.